How can it be ten weeks? Ten weeks since Jarek Croix came into our lives and fulfilled my miracle wish. It is amazing we have hit double digits and this little boy is growing like a weed. He fits in 6mo clothing and he is only 2.5 months old. Stop growing my angel! Stay little and forever be my baby. I cannot say that enough, but it is so true. When I stare into his eyes while he nurses, all I can feel is love pouring from me to him. These are the days we will never get back...oh how I am savoring each and every one.
The holidays are coming around and the tree is dressed, the presents wrapped and the cookies baked. Now, all we can do is wait for Santa.
When asked what I want for Christmas, I simply can only smile and say I already got my gift. My Jarek.
Last Christmas, the sadness and the pain that lived within my soul NEVER imagined that in a year everything would change. Gratitude, Blessing, Happiness and Completion are just a few words that pop into my mind. I had no idea that the IVF would work, that a year later, a ten week old angel would lay in my arms. I hold him a little closer these days...since he is growing so fast. I relish in my miracle baby. The journey I took...from the financial struggles, the medical procedures, the needles that became a daily routine and the constant fear of things failing....or even the embryo taking...the fear of a failed pregnancy or a miscarriage....on October 11th, all of that fear and pain laid to rest as our little boy came into our lives.
For everyone out there that is going through this struggle or just starting the journey, my wish this Christmas is that you find your miracle. That God and Santa grant you the peace and blessing to have a similar experience. There is something special about the holidays with a new baby. There is just that magic in the air again.
How is everything going? Well, here are some ten week highlights.
Routines: Jarek has not been happy the last few nights and it could be a few things, teething (OMG, ahhh!??) bubble belly? or simply a lack of a routine. Well, things are being kicked into order now.
Starting as we wake up, feedings and naps are more structured, with set times every two hours. When visiting, Jarek has to be weaned from his slight stranger anxiety so this means Matt and I hold him while others play and talk to him. It is the only way to keep him from experiencing the fears during the night. It will be hard with Christmas coming up and all the eager arms to hold him, but for our sanity (or mine I should say since Matt is working Christmas night), I am going to try to keep him as close to me as I can as we navigate these tricky times.
I cannot wait to share Christmas pictures with you all. Thank you for being patient in between my writings lately. There are just too few hours in the day lately. Which means, a blog for another night will be the "return to work" decision....
I end this with a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all and sending my love. I am staring at my miracle this year and holding him in my arms. In fact, with the magic in the air and the reflection of my long and powerful struggle with infertility, I will be holding my boy just a little closer these days. I cannot be thankful enough for what God has blessed us with. Any other situation, and just think, Jarek wouldn't exist. (another gorgeous baby, maybe, but not Jarek!) So the way I look at it, the BEST things come to those that wait!!! xxoo
The holidays are coming around and the tree is dressed, the presents wrapped and the cookies baked. Now, all we can do is wait for Santa.
When asked what I want for Christmas, I simply can only smile and say I already got my gift. My Jarek.
Last Christmas, the sadness and the pain that lived within my soul NEVER imagined that in a year everything would change. Gratitude, Blessing, Happiness and Completion are just a few words that pop into my mind. I had no idea that the IVF would work, that a year later, a ten week old angel would lay in my arms. I hold him a little closer these days...since he is growing so fast. I relish in my miracle baby. The journey I took...from the financial struggles, the medical procedures, the needles that became a daily routine and the constant fear of things failing....or even the embryo taking...the fear of a failed pregnancy or a miscarriage....on October 11th, all of that fear and pain laid to rest as our little boy came into our lives.
For everyone out there that is going through this struggle or just starting the journey, my wish this Christmas is that you find your miracle. That God and Santa grant you the peace and blessing to have a similar experience. There is something special about the holidays with a new baby. There is just that magic in the air again.
How is everything going? Well, here are some ten week highlights.
Routines: Jarek has not been happy the last few nights and it could be a few things, teething (OMG, ahhh!??) bubble belly? or simply a lack of a routine. Well, things are being kicked into order now.
Starting as we wake up, feedings and naps are more structured, with set times every two hours. When visiting, Jarek has to be weaned from his slight stranger anxiety so this means Matt and I hold him while others play and talk to him. It is the only way to keep him from experiencing the fears during the night. It will be hard with Christmas coming up and all the eager arms to hold him, but for our sanity (or mine I should say since Matt is working Christmas night), I am going to try to keep him as close to me as I can as we navigate these tricky times.
I cannot wait to share Christmas pictures with you all. Thank you for being patient in between my writings lately. There are just too few hours in the day lately. Which means, a blog for another night will be the "return to work" decision....
I end this with a VERY MERRY CHRISTMAS to you all and sending my love. I am staring at my miracle this year and holding him in my arms. In fact, with the magic in the air and the reflection of my long and powerful struggle with infertility, I will be holding my boy just a little closer these days. I cannot be thankful enough for what God has blessed us with. Any other situation, and just think, Jarek wouldn't exist. (another gorgeous baby, maybe, but not Jarek!) So the way I look at it, the BEST things come to those that wait!!! xxoo