I know there was a life before this one. I can remember vaguely flying aircraft. I remember at one time I worked on an ambulance. I remember flying helicopters with a little wiggling worm in my tummy. But did I just dream that up?
So many times during the day I stare down at the beautiful baby in my arms and I can no longer remember the adrenaline packed desire that infiltrated my life before his birth. I do not long for the island-flying life (although it was amazing!) and I do not long for racing through the streets blaring lights and sirens, wondering what the next 911 call brought.
In fact, every day I spend hours just holding our little Jarek. Nursing him, watching him, smelling him. I have become addicted to seeing every little smile and hearing every coo.
He has become such an interactive boy, and I have become a Mom.
He had his 2 month check up (WHERE DOES TIME GO??!!) He is 11lb 9.5 oz! 23.5" long and his head circumference is 39cm! If he keeps up this, I won't have any clothes that fit. In ONE month he gained 2 inches! No wonder his 3mo onesies no longer fit! He is now stretching out in 3-6mo clothes. It is bitter sweet packing up newborn and 3mo clothes. He barely got to wear a lot of them.
He also got 2 of his first inoculations. He was a big boy and cried on the first one, but I cried on both. I hate seeing my baby in pain.
He eats A LOT still. With the nipple shield, this is not bothering me nearly as much and I get a lot done now with him latched on! As far as me? I'm feeling very good (besides a killer headache today). I am falling so in love every day, that I just can't seem to imagine any other life than this.
Jarek is enamored with Matt. He loves laughing with him and now he even turns his head to follow things and people. It is so cool to see him change by the day! We have this singing little Elmo box that lights up. We use it when we change his diaper, he LOVES it! I never thought I'd be the woman singing in an Elmo voice, some cheesy kid song. But you know what? I can't imagine doing anything else!
As my maternity leave comes to a close, I face very serious decisions to make as far as reentry into the workplace. Not in a billion years did I imagine that I would fall this deeply in love with becoming a parent. I cannot imagine this baby going to a daycare or even being watched by anyone other than Matt, myself or our family. That being said, what do I do? Until that decision is made, and relayed to work, I will keep it to myself. I have a lot of thought to put into it. I absolutely can live frugally to enjoy the moments with our son.
These are the moments I will never get back. In due time, he won't want to sleep on my chest all hours of the afternoon. He won't want to nurse and he won't want to smile that huge gorgeous smile to me just because when he woke up, I was the first thing he saw. I am cherishing these moments. I am leaving my phone on silent a lot more often. I am soaking in each and every breath with my son.
I am a Mom, and there is no other title I'd rather be. xxoo
So many times during the day I stare down at the beautiful baby in my arms and I can no longer remember the adrenaline packed desire that infiltrated my life before his birth. I do not long for the island-flying life (although it was amazing!) and I do not long for racing through the streets blaring lights and sirens, wondering what the next 911 call brought.
In fact, every day I spend hours just holding our little Jarek. Nursing him, watching him, smelling him. I have become addicted to seeing every little smile and hearing every coo.
He has become such an interactive boy, and I have become a Mom.
He had his 2 month check up (WHERE DOES TIME GO??!!) He is 11lb 9.5 oz! 23.5" long and his head circumference is 39cm! If he keeps up this, I won't have any clothes that fit. In ONE month he gained 2 inches! No wonder his 3mo onesies no longer fit! He is now stretching out in 3-6mo clothes. It is bitter sweet packing up newborn and 3mo clothes. He barely got to wear a lot of them.
He also got 2 of his first inoculations. He was a big boy and cried on the first one, but I cried on both. I hate seeing my baby in pain.
He eats A LOT still. With the nipple shield, this is not bothering me nearly as much and I get a lot done now with him latched on! As far as me? I'm feeling very good (besides a killer headache today). I am falling so in love every day, that I just can't seem to imagine any other life than this.
Jarek is enamored with Matt. He loves laughing with him and now he even turns his head to follow things and people. It is so cool to see him change by the day! We have this singing little Elmo box that lights up. We use it when we change his diaper, he LOVES it! I never thought I'd be the woman singing in an Elmo voice, some cheesy kid song. But you know what? I can't imagine doing anything else!
As my maternity leave comes to a close, I face very serious decisions to make as far as reentry into the workplace. Not in a billion years did I imagine that I would fall this deeply in love with becoming a parent. I cannot imagine this baby going to a daycare or even being watched by anyone other than Matt, myself or our family. That being said, what do I do? Until that decision is made, and relayed to work, I will keep it to myself. I have a lot of thought to put into it. I absolutely can live frugally to enjoy the moments with our son.
These are the moments I will never get back. In due time, he won't want to sleep on my chest all hours of the afternoon. He won't want to nurse and he won't want to smile that huge gorgeous smile to me just because when he woke up, I was the first thing he saw. I am cherishing these moments. I am leaving my phone on silent a lot more often. I am soaking in each and every breath with my son.
I am a Mom, and there is no other title I'd rather be. xxoo